Choose or not to choose

love or not to love, that is the question

 

Little king, it is time to extend the book,

give me the honor to take a look,

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Into the deepest layers of my heart,

that I am trying to express with my love poem art.

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For more than 2 years I am waiting for a first date,

look at my belly, I put on a lot of frustration/happiness weight.

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Even when you have been far away for so long,

my feelings for you are still strong.

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While at the same time I am trying to kick them out of my heart,

as there has been so much that had the potential to pull us apart.

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You are all I never wanted, vice versa is the same,

in this all or nothing game.

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At the same time we are like an old married couple, deeply connected,

love bite affected.

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Our higher essence, united, but ready to part way,

so that you have the freedom to walk away.

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Our life vision/mission seems not to match,

so we are forcing us to detach.

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Believing this is the only way,

at the German and French Atlantique bay.

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One man and surrounding had to catch the golden ball,

It is about to fall.

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While at the same time it can be thrown up again towards the sky,

flying high or a final bye bye.

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Not knowing which timeline to choose,

to be walking in whose shoes?

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Our mutual purpose can be voided if this is what we feel,

and we can look elsewhere for another spiritual “deal”.

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It is important to follow the inner voice,

and to take the right choice.

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Maybe the physical took already its toll and this is not possible any longer,

when the physical temptations were stronger.

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Do not take me for granted, as I am pure gold,

do you wanna warm me or leave me out in the cold?

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Also connected to my international ambition,

in what way I desire to follow my love mission.

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Suddenly finding you in this unique situation not knowing how to get out,

out of this cloud,

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of trying to escape

what has been placed on your plate,

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what will await, what only time will show in the eternal now,

when you have more know-how,

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how to navigate this situation,

and can tolerate more frustration.

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Our cultures do not match that well,

in our physical shell.

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We incarnated in a way that makes it nearly impossible to physically unite, 

in deep love shining bright. 

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Look around and we only see "no-go"

in this illusionary show. 

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Nothing seems to fit, 

not even a bit. 

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Once we nearly found a way to each other, 

something happened to draw us apart from one another. 

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This must be some sort of key, 

one day we will see.  

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The circle of repetition, 

too high of an admission. 

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Difficult to escape this loop of conflict,

while we are both an addict, 

 

of the chemistry of us, 

short term a plus. 

 

Long term this equation does not work out, 

I need to leave the energies behind that doubt.  

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​I herewith declare I only accept a man on my side,

​who gives me delight,

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constant pleasure,

​that is my golden treasure.

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who gives me a pure snow white kiss,

​otherwise I declare us amiss.

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So Monsieur, take your colourful choice,

raise your voice.

 

​My star, I can maybe give you the answer in ages,

when I have reached other stages,

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in my personal development, consciousness, and frequency,

and I learned the lessons of enlightenment decently.

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Until then I play,

at the French Atlantique Bay.

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I learned to be strong on my own,

to create my own love zone, 

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to be rich in my heart,

and to diligently express my art, 

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while I head towards the peak of the mountain, 

with the golden fountain, 

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home in its glory, 

wow, what a fantasy story. 

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​​​Germany 8.2.2025